Just Thinking

Once upon a time I told someone that my life motto is "Come what may and love it."  I have not been living this.  I have been letting things come and have not been loving it.  I need to love it.  I have lots to love.  And I think it would help me do better in life, it'd give me a better attitude.  I need that too.  So I'm going to do better.  I have to.  For myself. 

Holiday and Birthday :)

 

I'm a bit behind on my blogging!  I have much to say about the great time I've been having lately!  Christmas was so so great!  I loved being away from school and work.  And I LOVED spending time with my family and Curtis and his family.  I definitely was spoiled this year.  My parents got me a laptop!  WOW!!  I love it!  I got it on Black Friday....I got it for school.  But it was mostly all for Christmas.  I got some clothes and other fun stuff from Santa and from my family.  Curtis really spoiled me.  He surprised me one day with a dozen red roses!  My favorite!  :)  He got me the best smelling perfume ever, Halle Berry.  It is yummy!  He got me a very cute shirt that I love.  And he got me THESE BEAUTIES! 

I  have wanted these for a while!  And who knew all this time Curtis was listening to me ramble about them when we would make a trip to the mall:)  I sure love that guy!

That's not all!  His parents gave us a gift card to Elements, the new restaurant in town.  We went on my birthday...and boy was I spoiled on my birthday too!  Mom and Dad gave me THIS!  I love love love it!  We've had so much fun playing it!  Even the boys in the family played it.  And Curtis is dang good at it!  He beats me a lot!  Kaylee and Bryce gave me a dang cute Utah State Shirt...I got tons of compliments on them.  Thanks!  And Curtis spoiled me even more!  Aside from dinner at Elements, which was so fancy and fun, Curtis gave me a date night to do FLOWRIDER!!!  Every time we walk by that place I want to do it.  And again Curtis was listening!  :)  He also delivered the most beautiful flowers ever to me while I was at work!  I sure love him!  

It really was the best holiday/birthday ever.  I loved it!  Then school ruined things...funny how that happens!  :)

Black Friday

I got a lap top!  I got it on Black Friday at Walmart!  It's a nice one....and it was very affordable!  More to come later:)

I love LOVE.  I like seeing people who are in love, I like to feel love, I like to show love.  Today I was thinking a lot about what love is to me.  How do I like people to show love to me?  What means the most to me?  The 5 Love Languages is a book all about these questions.  I have yet to read the book, but I know a lot about the love languages, it really interests me.  So today I took THIS QUIZ.  These are my results:

Percent	Language	Score
23%	Words of Affirmation	7
33%	Quality Time	10
7%	Receiving Gifts	2
23%	Acts of Service	7
13%	Physical Touch	4

   
So there you have it.  This is how I love and want to be loved. 

Love is on my mind a lot these days.  How do I even know when I'm in love?  How can I make a decision about who to marry and who to love for eternity?  Then this cute girl showed me this great talk.  This talk taught me a lot and I really appreciated it.  So until the time comes for that big magical day that is hopefully in my future sometime, I will do my best and enjoy the journey.  Then one day someone will give me my fairytale.  Something similar to the magicalness of this, something a friend of mine did.  He's in love:)  How is this a bad plan?  I love love:)

Times are Tough

The past summer has been a tough one for me.  I learned a lot about life and about myself.  School came and I feel like things only got harder.  I've learned that I don't know a lot about the human mind.  Why do some people do what they do?  Why do they make choices that hurt themselves and the people who love them?  I've also learned that I don't know why I make plans...They always change anyways!  I had a lot of things that I really looked forward to, now some of those things are changing a bit.  I learned that the world is cruel.  The world is evil and has evil people.  I hate that evil things are so easily accessible and that evil is all around trying to lead people away.  I learned that I trust people easily, I love people easily, and I don't like causing hurt in anyone's life.  I learned that I can lose dear friends quickly.  I learned that people are not always as forgiving or understanding as I would like.  I'm still learning how to deal with heartaches that are inevitable, trials that are there to help us grow, and decisions that are scary and outcomes that are unknown.  

I'm also learning that I have more faith than I thought I did.  I'm learning about My Savior's Atoning sacrifice for me and He invites me to come unto Him.  He can heal us.  I'm learning that some people will be there for me, through thick and thin, no matter what.  I'm learning that a little hope and one little light in the dark can go a really long way.  I'm learning that I need to trust, and when I can trust, I will get the happily ever after I so deeply desire.  Knowing this doesn't make the trials any easier, but it makes the endurable.  It makes the tears shed, the heartaches, the lonely times, the dark times, and the fear worth it.  There is hope.  There is light at the end of the tunnel.  So come what may and LOVE IT! 

Be patient in afflictions, for thou shalt have many; but endure them, for, lo, I am with thee, even unto the end of thy days.  D&C 24:8

Behold, I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God... I am the light which shineth in darkness, and the darkness comprehendeth it not. D&C 6:21

Today's Pick Me Up

For the last little while I've had a lot on my mind.  There's been a lot of changes and a lot of stress.  I hate school; I hate my classes and I don't like Utah State.  I feel super stressed and really sleep deprived all the time.  I'm poor.  I don't have much of a social life.  I don't like working in the admissions office.  I don't like not being able to see Curtis.  I don't like my flaws and my faults.  But today in institute, my scriptures fell open to a verse I needed to see.  It was a simple verse about the atonement.  How my Savior bears my iniquities and knows my sorrows and heartaches.  My Savior knows how I feel.  And that is what I needed today.  There is help and there is light at the end of the tunnel!  Boy am I grateful for This Gospel!  So I decided to be done with this stupid negative attitude I've been lingering on.  I WILL make the best of this semester and I WILL be happy.  Today is a good day.  I GET to go to school and I GET to go to work.  And at the end of a long day, I get to go be with Curtis.  How can this be a bad plan?  :)

The Boy I'm Falling For!

This is me and a really cute boy.  His name is Curtis.  I like him:)